An Open Letter To My Depression
If I was to search for your name I would be presented with pages and pages of the pain you cause. The pages would tell me about how you will take over my life, consume me and make me feel like I’m loosing every part of me. But that’s what you want right? You want control and you need power. But what if I told you that really you’re just a contradiction of yourself.
You were and still are the worst thing I have faced in my life but you have also changed me for the better. Sounds stupid right? How could you have changed me for the better when you are the devil re-incarnated? Well, for one simple reason really.
I never want anyone else to feel like I have.
I think about what I’m going to say before I speak because I know how it feels to analyse every sentence, searching for any negativity. I smile at strangers because I understand what it’s like to feel alone. I tell people that everything will be okay because I know now that it will. I have and still am fighting your presence but I am getting better. I am having happier days and I am making the most of everyday. You keep trying to defeat me but I know now that I am stronger. Everyone is stronger than you.
You have made me search happiness instead of making me loose hope.